Musings - Insecurity

A facet of human nature I think of quite a bit is security

If i had to define it, i’d say it is being sure in your beliefs and knowing who you are, who you stand for and not only accepting it but being happy with it. Being secure is being able to take things as they come, handling everything according to what you deem right and if you had made a mistake, being able to take responsibility graciously accepting your misjudgement of the situation, and being able to learn from it. Being secure is not something that can be taught but as of most things, learned and practiced through life experience and an open mind. And achieving it still does not mean we’re entitled to it, it needs to be maintained and reinforced. Being secure, is fucking hard.

I think being secured stems from and nourishes the feeling of having a fulfilled life, it’s like the chicken and egg question. Did the feeling of a fulfilled life come first? Or the security? I guess we do what we can

I’m still trying to get there and i don’t think i’d be the 1st to raise my hand to that. It’s sad when all your thoughts are constantly plagued with insecurity. I’m trying to overcome it but sometimes, I don’t know how else to think.

I believe security and confidence come hand in hand, but it could just as likely be faked. We’re naturally drawn to confidence because we think the person radiating it is secured mind, body and soul, and we admire that, we want that.

I don’t know if it’s possible for anyone to feel completely secured, insecurity feels.. human.. sometimes i think it almost defines human. I mean can you imagine a bird insecure with its singing? a baboon with its butt? So i don’t have complete authority to say this since i’ve neither been a bird nor a baboon, but to me, it feels like birds and baboons think, to hell with it. Who are you to judge?

Perhaps as humans, our “cognitive capabilities” play up havoc. When we’re insecure, it’s a show down between what we think we should be or want to be and what we think we are. And we conclude by thinking because we’re not all that, we’re not good enough. To an extent, that’s why I also think being insecure is a function of us being too self indulgent.

Haha all this talk of security insecurity, RANDOM i know. A question I was asked today triggered it and i needed somewhere to write my 5 cents worth =P So now what. Next on my hit list, the meaning of life! stay tuned y’all! =P